I just finished watching the 9pm show on channel 8 and it is sooo disgusting !!!!

Hai. Before the show even started airing, I knew it would be horrible just by watching the shorts.

I hate shows with pitiful people. Like the ones Xie ShaoGuang and Huang Bi Ren are always in.

It stars Chen Han Wei (his my favourite male actor on ch8 since young!) (have always been silently perplexed over why alot of girls my age don't think he's very good), and the show is about him being a good family man but ends up having aids because of one incident with a prostitute.

Before the show, I thought he was a womanizing guy, that's why he got aids. But no !!!! He is such a good man !!! Argh ! 

For the past few days, at 9pm my throat gets so sore from trying not to cry watching him and his painful AIDS patient expressions.

So ke lian la ! (he acts pitiful so well)

Hai !!! Why he never protect himself properly ! I am just so angry at the show. 

Though I know that it's just a show, but surely, somewhere right now, some unfortunate, innocent person who's gotten aids from another unthinking, selfish inhuman being must feel like dying now.

Life is so unfair really. These people have their whole life ahead and suddenly, they are like not part of the human race anymore. Just some separated individual waiting for death to befall them as quickly as possible.

It's like living in a nightmare that you can never get out of.

Hai. Watching the show makes me wonder how such things can be made to happen to anyone. Very sad leh. But I cannot resist watching. And every second watching it, my heart wrenches for Bu Fan and how much I hate the show. 

I have to stop being so judgmental and scared of people who are sick. 

(ok la. abit difficult. but i shall try to stop thinking mean and selfish thoughts every time strangers cough cough in the train)

(i admit that i do that very often. i'm almightily afraid of falling ill)

Hai. Ke lian de Bu Fan. I do hope thinks turn better for him.