Hey guys !
Created this space years and years ago thus do forgive
me if it comes off as extremely cheesy. And the incredibly
tacky name. Haha, I get chills everytime I lay eyes on it.
Too lazy to change things though !
I love to write, so have kept myself updating over the years.
I hope you guys enjoy reading me ! ♥
12:27 PM
Even though I went to mug almost the entire day today in the library (haven't done that in ageeeeeees), I'm not feeling very good.
I've always felt that I'm relatively like you know, smart, or like, not stupid la you know !!
I know somewhere along during secondary school, I developed the 'heck care' attitude towards studies but still !
I always managed at the last minute.
But studying with people who are really going at it huh.
Oh man.
Too many times these days when I've tried studying, there's just this utter blankness, I know I'm not pushing myself hard enough, I kind of refuse to go on, but still.
I'm actually beginning to feel pretty lousy about myself man !
Like shameful.
Like half witted.
That's never happened before ! I'm pretty obnoxious and full of myself really. Hahaha !!
But when someone tells me to study harder these days, I feel like hanging my head cause deep down inside, I do not want to study harder.
I mean, I do la, badly, but I just don't want to sit down and do it you know?
Oh man. I'm feeling so little and small everytime I look at the books. You won't understand one la !
I feel like [ Σ ( xi - x )2 / ( n - 1 ) ]'s gonna prove how advanced and big of a person I am.
Whaaaaaat?
I know I know. Gotta cease this pity party and cram harderrrrrr !
At least I think I'm still pretty savvy. Though, I'll bet he'll beg to differ. HAHAA !
Hai. Sorry about the whining. I'm losing it. Lol.
Oh well !
Let's scratch all that for the moment, the boy's POPing this weekend !
Hahahaha. I know, it's kind of late.
And, he's kind of young.
You know huh. Honestly.
Everytime I let people know I have a boyfriend, I just KNOW they're gonna ask what he's doing now or how old is he.
I always feel very weird and like. I dunno, weird. When I tell them he's the same age as me. I'm 20. I remember I actually stuttered when I told my Dad. Lol !
And immediately I'll follow by saying, so youuuuuung right !
Haha. Does it even make sense?
Alot of girls I know are young or fine, relatively young if you're 15 and reading this, and dating a guy the same age but.
None of my best friends are and I'd bet that they think the guy I'm dating is just too young.
So, well. Ya, not really sure what to think of it sometimes.
It feels kind of weird at times, great almost ALWAYS, but still, out of place you know.
Some people have told me I'm being naïve, crazy or whatever but.
Hmmm. Would love to hear what you girls thing, but unfortunately, I can't add a comment box, have been trying, don't know how... why nobody asks me any questions on Formspring onee !!!
That was pretty random.
OKAY BUT.
Also honestly, it's been awesooooooooome so far, he's very often the wiser one, the stronger one definitely, though sometimes it feels like he needs to return to primary school, you know, boys.
I don't regret it. And I'm actually really excited to head over Barrage this Saturday !!
Not the waking up at 6am part, but watching them and their ceremony !!
Hehehe.
Well, that's it. Am gonna bring my camera out for once and take a ton of photos !
And you ! I know how you're always reading my blog right in front of me and chuckling away, what I just said was really nothing, just some stuff I wanted to get out of my system.
You're great. (:
Even though you gave me a surprise which was to bring me to take the circle line that once.
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